And so it begins here...

We have been married 2.5 years now, and it's time to start the TTC journey. We are keeping this private journey to ourselves for now, so here is where I'll note down these memories, until we are ready for friends and family to be involved.

About 6 weeks ago on 18 Nov, I went to see my GP. See, the last time I had a period was in May (2009). That makes my current cycle 224 days long as of today. Before that I was on the BCP for more than 2 years and after I stopped taking them in March in anticipation of TTC-ing, I had 2 normal 30 day cycles, then it just stopped. Just like that, poof! We didn't start trying those first 2 months, cos I wanted to fully get rid of the BCP from my system and properly prepare myself for a baby. You know, supplements and no alcohol etc. I thought the lack of period was my body's way of getting itself together and getting rid of whatever dregs of leftover BCPs there was in there, so I left it be.

Then I got a promotion at work. Then I took over 10 new accounts. Then I started my double degree (off-campus/part-time) studies. Then I travelled for work a hell lot. Then we moved house. I was swamped and could barely keep up with things. After all that dust settled, it suddenly dawned on me that, hey, I haven't seen my period in AGES. Not that I'm complaining cos it means no painful cramps every month, but I was getting anxious about making ourselves a little one. So off to the doctor I went.

First visit to the GP on 18th Nov, we discussed my medical history. Then he went straight on to order me a pelvic ultrasound. I was soooo prepared to have to haggle for it, cos I know that doctors are usually not concerned about things like that especially considering I just came off the pill and haven't waited at least 12 months yet. And especially since I'm only 22 and hubby is 29. So I was pleasantly surprised and was really glad I found myself a GP who was actively trying to achieve the same thing as us.

That very saturday, we went to get ultrasound-ed (hah!), both transvaginal and transabdominal. I walked away with a stack of ultrasound images and (duh) proceeded to analyse them myself. Left ovary had 15 follicles, right ovary had 25. Had no idea what that meant, so googled it. Hah. Wrong move. Apparently, my ovaries show classic polycystic ovaries. So obviously I went further and found info on PCOS, the syndrome associated. Scared the sh*t out of me and my hubby I tell ya. I fit almost all symptoms listed - PCO, no period for a long time, weight gain only around my tummy/waist area, increased hair on legs, face, underarms, etc. Not funny. We want a baby so badly and this is just gonna throw a damn spanner in the works. I started to stress and drive myself (and hubby) insane with worry for the next few days, until we went to the see the GP again on Wed, 25 Nov. He took a look at the report and the images, and immediately wrote me a referral letter for the "resident" gynaecologist that visits the practice each Wednesday morning.

So the next wednesday, now 2 Dec already, I saw the GYN and he ordered blood tests and hormone tests and even ordered a semen analysis for hubby, just to confirm the diagnosis and see what we can do from here on. So that put my mind at ease a little, cos he was extremely confident that this would not be that huge of a hurdle on our baby making journey. He insists that it's a super common problem with women my age and 75% of all women who he's treated with the same problem has gone on to have little ones with a bit of help from the pharmaceutical companies of the world. So we heed his advice and went for all the tests, and an appointment to see him again was made for this Wed, 16 Dec. This appointment was a major step forward as dr. acknowledged my fertility problems due to lack of spontaneous/regular ovulation.

He prescribed primolut to trigger my period, then clomid to trigger ovulation. So primolut will be 3 times a day for 5 days starting 16 Dec Wed. about 7 days after, my period should come (dreading it but can't wait till it finally comes too) and that would officially be CD1 of my first TTC cycle. D5 to D9 will be Clomid days, then we're gonna have to start depositing some of hubby's little soldiers up until after I ovulate at least. That is, if I ovulate at all. *fingers crossed* Blood test has been ordered for CD22 to 24 to check if I indeed ovulated, so I just need to keep reminding myself about that. Hopefully this would mean return of a normal cycle and around CD28 to 30, if not pregnant, I should get my period again. Although with my history of SUPER irregular periods, I'm not keeping my hopes up. If my period doesn't come then, dr. wants me to wait 2 more weeks after that before I go to him for tests. If I'm definitely not pregnant, then we'll go for round 2 of Clomid.

We are REALLY REALLY hoping for round 2 to be unnecessary because we REALLY REALLY wanna be able to announce a pregnancy to our closest friends and family when we go back home to visit in mid-Feb 2010. *toes crossed too*!

But I know I should not have my hopes up and that it is not the end of the world even if round 2 comes around. But in the meantime, I'm religiously charting my temps, taking supplements, abstaining from all things bad for little ones, etc. Hopefully these steps I'm taking will boost our chances a little bit. Still thinking about using OPKs and/or Maybe Baby. Going OTT there? I'm not sure...

More a recording of all the technical side of things today, I'll come back with more about how I really feel... lots of confusing thoughts, stress, worrying, etc. oh well.