Finally.

I know I’ve been missing in action from here for some time now, and that’s because I felt I needed some time off to stop obsessing and just let my body do what it needs to do. To be honest, I had more or less given up on really trying already, just get on with life and let it happen when it happens.

This morning, we found out that I’M PREGNANT. Now, all I had was a Lullaby Conception (ordered online) HPT strip that showed a second line, and apparently, a line is a line so it means I’m officially up the duff! Lots of reading has told me that there is no such thing as a false positive, only false negatives, so I guess it’s true. I had a moment of “OMG is it real this time?” and many moments of “there must be something wrong with the test, I can’t possibly be pregnant!” But it’s slowly sinking in... I know I’ve only gotten 1 BFP, and I probably should test a few more times over the next few days to be sure, but I can’t help but be flooded with hope and happiness :)

Because I stopped temping and tracking my ovulation this cycle, I have no idea when I ovulated. LMP was 28 Feb 2010, and we started making love from around the 9^th of March, which was day 10 and the day after I finished my round of Clomid. Without fail, we have had sex every 2 days since then at least, up until this past weekend. But because I stopped with the OPKs and the temps, it was alot less stressful this time around, and each love-making session was amazing with husband :)

So yes. I’m still trying to get my head around this, so pardon the seeming lack of enthusiasm... This weekend is Easter, and I’m due to start my period on Friday or so. I’ll probably keep peeing on sticks the next few days and if by Tuesday dear ol’ miz period is still not appearing, I’ll go get a blood test done during lunch time here in the city. Then I’ll make the doctor’s appointment and see how everything goes from there. Now, only you dear old blog knows. Jude’s pretty insistent on confirming it with the blood test and the doctor first before telling anyone. Including parents and closest friends even though I’m dying to tell Edna, Rozy, my sisters and my mum!!! Everyone else will have to wait till the first trimester is over and things are a little more safe, before they’ll get to know. So for now, I have about 1 week to wait. The waiting is the worse! And I guess finding out at 3W6D is not really helping with the wait cos it’s so much longer than for everyone else!!!

I feel really really blessed right now, to have this little life growing inside me. I have promised, and will continue to promise to do everything within my power to make sure I give this little one the best chances of survival. I’ve been taking Blackmore’s Conceive Well Gold for about 4 months now, and I’ve been cutting down on caffeine, getting more sleep, reducing my stress level, etc. So hopefully all this will help. I couldn’t even bring myself to make myself a cup of tea this morning even though 1 cup is okay. Haha! I feel pathetic, but it’s okay because it will all be worth it. I don’t know what will happen over the next couple of week, nor the next couple of months, but as of right now, I’m a mother again and the feeling is oh-so-powerful. I know that finding out so early can be a really bad thing, especially when so many pregnancies don’t last past the first couple of weeks anyway... But I wanna have some hope... and I’m praying that this little one will stick around to be our child :) If anything bad happens, at least I know I can fall pregnant and we can always try again. If nothing happens and things go smoothly, then we will both be proud and elated parents of a new little one before the second week of December this year :) If my due date calculators are right and based on an average cycle length of 32 days, little one will be due on 9^th Dec 2010, which gives us a chance of having an anniversary baby on the 5^th of Dec :) who knows right?

OMG, I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I’m PREGNANT!!!!!