TTC Cycle #2

It's CD11 of a new cycle.
Yeap, dear old miz period showed up on 28 Jan.
The day after my hopeful doctor's visit.
So here we go again.
Clomid's done with this round, so now we wait.

Somehow I wasn't surprised, but didn't stop me from being disappointed and upset about it. But no point in staying down right? Right.

I've ordered OPKs, HPTs and Pre Seed online and it came in the mail already. It'll save me some moolah and hopefully the PS will make it easier for both husband and me when the going gets tough.

We'll be back home in SG from 11th to 20th of Feb, which happens to be CD15 to CD24. Which means I don't have much hope for this cycle really. I'm in more of a let's-get-this-cycle-over-and-done-with-so-we-can-really-start-next-cycle mindset. I doubt I'll wanna be peeing on OPKs in my MIL's house and having to hide the test stick while waiting for the results to come up. I'll continue temping of course, and hopefully be able to find time to dance the baby jig with husband, but it's all in the hands of fate this time round.

Last cycle, I ovulated on CD22. This cycle, I'm not expecting much of anything different - great timing eh? Oh well, what can we do? We'll do what we can do of course, but honestly I'm not holding my breath.

I'm starting to get those pains in the ovaries, mostly on the left side right now and the mother of all headaches coming and going every couple of hours. I've put that down to side effects of the Clomid and nothing much. I have no doubt that Clomid helps me ovulate, so it's just a question of when.

We kicked off baby-making season with a bang yesterday and that was a hell of  way to do it :) Husband was awesome and it was some of the best sex we've had in some time now. Let's hope it continues this way for the next 10 to 14 days :p

Doctor says I can keep going at what I'm doing now with the Clomid and all for a few more cycles after this without going back to see him. I've got plenty of repeats on my prescription and he even wrote me a referral for a HCG blood test for when I need it. Oh and also one for a pelvic ultrasound for when I need it. Hah! I don't even need to see him for another 3 or 4 more months if baby doesn't come to us. We'll just keep going. I'm considering taking a break from Clomid next month if this cycle doesn't work. Just to give my hormones and my ovaries a break and to see if they will do what they're supposed to do on their own. But I'm just thinking.

I still want a baby really badly, but after last month's disappointment, we are now officially past the 1 year hurdle of trying and can be considered infertile. Nothing's wrong with husband's boys, so it's all me. I'm feeling disheartened, but at the same time hopeful that this means it's not our time yet. I'm desperate for our own little one to come into our lives, but I dunno if I can keep going and spending all that money and effort on clomid and tests and all, and suffer the same disappointment over and over again. I'm not ready to give up, but at the same time, I feel as though I need to back off and let nature take it's course. But what should it be? I dunno. I'm in a confusing place right now, so we'll just wait and see what happens after we get back from SG.

Meantime, I'm continuing with the supplements and the temp taking every morning. Hopefully it'll come to something soon...


Hey there, little one... we know you are out there somewhere, waiting for the right time to join our family. Please know that mummy and daddy are more than ready for you and we will love you wholeheartedly with every ounce of our being when you get here. I already do...