Haven't Met You Yet

I LOVE this song.

I love Michael Buble.

I love what this song says to me right now :)

Although he sings about a girl, all I see in those lyrics, is my kid.

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

Official Music Video link on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AJmKkU5POA

Seems like Dr R was wrong.

He said last week that he'll probably see me in hospital to have this baby before our next appointment.

He lied.

It seems we will indeed make it to our appointment tomorrow morning.

We'll have to discuss how to further manage this pregnancy as it gets to my official due date and beyond.

He'll have to actively do something to help me manage my anxiety about having a post-due baby.

I'm worried about everything from fluid levels, to placental function, to cord accidents, to having a huge baby.

But on the other hand, I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna avoid a medical induction with drugs.

The risks of that resulting in further intervention like c-section and forceps is too daunting.

Baby and I had a good talk about this last night.

As much as we both really want a natural labour and birth experience, for both my and Xander's sakes,

if a medical induction is really necessary for our good, 

then baby says we should be prepared to accept it and work with it.

I hate to agree with him on this, but he's right about this...

The end result - a healthy baby and mummy - is the most important isn't it?

We'll have to talk to Dr R tomorrow and see what he says.

He saw that I'm getting increasingly stressed out about when Xander's gonna come as the due date draws nearer and nearer,

and he's trying his best to make me relax.

I know...

I know that once I relax, nature will take its course and Xander will come on his own time.

But it's easier said then done.

On one hand I'm happy to wait,

on the other hand,

on the scale of 1 to 10, my discomfort level is at an 11 now.

Waking up 6 times a night to pee is not my idea of fun.

Even with a baby who needs feeding every 3 hours, I wouldn't be up 6 times a night.

My back's ok, but the burning ache in my hips are really driving my up the freaking wall.

And the contractions that come and go nowhere have me in pain all day for no apparent reason.

Ok. I need to stop whining and complaining.

I am grateful for a healthy, growing baby in my belly.

Immensely grateful.

Wouldn't trade this for anything else in this world.

Hey there little one,

as we discussed last night as a family,

it's best you come REALLY soon for your own good.

You really don't wanna come too close to Christmas,

because then you'll end up getting combined birthday/Christmas presents for the rest of your life from others.

And that, I can tell you now, is no fun.

I believe your aunty Chloe and uncle Drago can attest to that because they always get combined birthday/CNY red packets and it sucks cos they miss out on one present every year.

It's now the 1st of December already.

So if you come now,

you'll have like, a whole month of celebrations in December.

How much fun would that be?

Birthday, then Christmas, then New Year.

Imagine all the presents and cake and yummy food you'll get to enjoy each December.

You come now, 

and I promise you that mummy and daddy will celebrate your birthday before we even get into the Christmas spirit.

AND you'll get separate presents.

You come too close to Christmas..... hmmmm.... no guarantees ;)

Deal?

Ok now let's hope logical reasoning works with this kid.

It's December!!!

Wow.

Another year is passing us by already.

And to think at the beginning of the year, 

I felt like this year will take forever to go by.

Sometimes I felt like it was speeding by way too fast,

sometimes, like now, I feel like it can go a teeny tiny bit faster.

But yeah... end of another year.

Weird feelings this time.

My biggest wish for 2010 was this...

having a baby.

And now that it is coming true,

it is an incredible feeling because I never once thought it would.

Neh... the emo-ing will have to wait till later on.

Need to keep my spirits up while I sit around and wait for that wish to REALLY come true.

Oh and I baked Chocolate Brownies on Monday.
Hmmm... first attempt, semi-success.
I think it's too bitter.
Too much cocoa and 70% dark choc is too "dark".
Next time round must add more sugar, lessen the cocoa and lessen the cocoa content in the dark choc.
But baby likes it :)
Or maybe he's just being nice about it...
I think I can only eat it when it comes warmed with a giant scoop of yummy vanilla ice cream on top.
Yummmm...