Baby A update

Since baby's not around for me to feed him random information about our little one, let's do it here :)

According to my What to Expect iPhone app,

Baby A would be the size of a naval orange by the end of this week.

That's 11.43cm, and weighing between 56 to 85 grams.

:)

If that's true, it would explain my fast growing tummy.

I can't believe this little one is growing so big already...

For about a week or so now, 

I've been feeling what I believe is our little one.

Low in my tummy, and always concentrated around the same spot. 

It feels like... butterflies fluttering in my tummy.

Or in a more descriptive manner,

it feels like gas bubbles, but I know it's not gas because gas doesn't usually concentrate on just 1 spot.

It kinda moves through the intestines and you can literally feel them getting closer and closer to your ass.

Makes sense?

Gross I know, but it's the fact of life :)

I usually feel the movements when I stay very very still and concentrate on where Baby A is in my tummy.

And it'll usually last for maybe 20 seconds and it'll stop.

Once I wasn't concentrating on Baby A, and I felt the fluttering.

I was sitting at my desk leaning forward to the computer and didn't realise my pants were cutting tightly into my lower tummy.

Then all of a sudden there was a flurry of movement and I think that's the little one's way of reminding mummy that he/she's down there and I need to stop cutting off circulation and give the growing one more space.

It kinda made my day actually.

I didn't wanna say anything at first, cos I felt silly.

All the books say that it's too early to feel anything for first-time mums,

but I'm dead sure about it.

So I told baby and he completely believed me :)

It's nice to have someone believe me and not think I'm out of my mind.

For now, it's like a little secret between the little one and me.

But I can't wait till the day comes that Baby A moves much more so that we can see the belly surfing and so that baby can witness his little one in action first-hand. That would be the best day :)

So far, I've had 2 people on the train ask me if I need a seat.

And those made my happy cos I know I don't just look fat anymore.

Haha!

Unfortunately, the first time it was an old man and it didn't feel right to take his seat.

The second time, it was a lady standing next to me on the crowded train and offered to help me ask the seated passengers if they can give up their seat to me cos I didn't wanna ask. But I declined cos I felt bad that she was gonna be the bad guy for me :p

Hopefully soon it'll be obvious enough for other seated people to give me their seat or obvious enough so I won't feel stupid asking people for a seat.

Being 14 weeks pregnant now, our next ultrasound will be barely 1 month away.

It'll need to be scheduled for the first 2 weeks of July, some time between the 5th and the 15th, with the doctor's appointment to come as soon after as possible.

Then 16th to 19th, we got our gold coast trip planned. 

During this ultrasound, we'll get a full anatomy scan to make sure baby is developing well.

Heart, kidneys, intestines, brain, facial features, etc.

And most importantly, we'll finally be able to find out if we're having a baby lexi or baby xander.

I'm praying with all my heart that everything will look good, and that we'll have a healthy little one.

I don't really care whether we have a boy or girl, cos they'll be equally loved no matter what.

And I'm praying with all my heart that I won't have to go to this scan without baby.

We'll take whatever comes, but I'm hoping.

Hey there little one,

daddy wants me to remind you that you still have a daddy even if you don't hear his voice.

He loves you very much :)

Let's make sure you grow big and strong, 

and make him happy with a huge (stretch marks-less hopefully) tummy to rub when he comes back.

Baby will be in Singapore trying his best to find out as much about his mum's condition as possible, since it's finally a Monday and there are people around.

I hope he'll get his answers and that it'll be good news. Or rather as good as can be under the circumstances.

Wish I could be there to give him the support he needs, but he's a strong man and he knows I'm here with him in mind and spirit. 

That will have to be enough for now.

Hopefully knowing I'm waiting for him will help him through these tough times.

I love my husband dearly and miss him so terribly,

but I will be okay.

I will definitely be okay, because it's what he needs from me now.

He needs to be assured that I'm okay so he can focus his mind on more pressing matters,

so I will do that for him :)

Baby, 

I'm a phone call away and whenever you feel like you need me to be there,

tell me and I'll be there in a heartbeat.

I promise. 

I'll drop everything else here to be with you if you need me.

You need to stay positive and strong for everyone else,

but with me, you know you can let it all go.

I'm here for you no matter what and I love you :)

You know what I think? 

I think your mum is a blessed lady to have a son like you by her side when she is in need.

And I believe so utterly that she will be blessed and come out of this okay.

You should believe me on this and believe it too :)